off to north carolina

i cant wait <3 its going to be so much fun.
im just going to clear my mind :]


<345

ever have them days

were you just feel so... unwelcome and unloved. you feel like no matter what you do, its not good enough; no matter how much make up you put on, you just don't cut it. You feel like everyone is talking badly about you. Everyone thinks your stupid or ugly. Everyone is disappointed in you for one reason or another. I think the worst feeling on these kinds of days, or on any day to be truthful, is when you KNOW someone thinks their too good for you. They don't want to be associated with you. like you worthless compared to you.


I have been having those days a lot lately.

ohp! forgot one

okay
- travis will tell me he has to get off THEN gets on either later on.
or just signs off aim and just talks to people on myspace
LIKE I DONT KNOW HE IS ON

mr. man

k,so travis has done little things alot lately that have just pissed me off.
and an overall not very good boyfriend...
i guess im dealing with it though.
and i cant complain cause we have "only been dating 2 weeks" he says.
so i just have to deal with his shit until i can complain and make him a better boy to me.
im like 5th on his top.
he never complements me or comments my pictures.
he never trys to like contact me, just whenever we are both on, we talk.
he doesnt put an effort to see me.
ill tell him i love him and he wont say it back (thats understandable but still)
i wrote him a letter and told him to write one back and he didnt

idk just little things like that have really been pissing me off.

okay lie, i know

yes i know i have not written something everyday
myspace has eaten my soul XD

So, no i did not go to the fair saturday, but i did go on monday,
and it was AMAZING.
i got to hang out with all my friends and Travis <3

BAD PART- lani and abby tried to spit on me and spit on travis instead XD lol

Im going to have a pretty good weekend.
im hanging out with the group all weekend!

group? oh wouldnt you just love to know :]
-Jessica -Raven -Shelby - Jacob
-Chris - Travis - Henry - Alex
(are in groups by who they are dating, no, alex and jacob are not dating, they are just losers and dont have girlfriends)

Today i worked ALL day on my Cathrine called birdy book
IT IS SO LAME- just as a side note!

i am absolutely in love with my profile as it is right now!
i think it is beautiful and i never want to change it! :]

My Next Weekend

Will be amazing :]

On Friday, i will be going to the Hollywood Undead show with all my friends
On Saturday, im going to the Fair with Travis
On Sunday, Probably nothing