Never known

I had never known it was hard for someone to forgive you.
I had never known you hadn't forgiven me.

I had never known it was hard for someone to believe you.
I had never known you didn't believe in me.

I had never known it was hard for you to believe in yourself.
I had never known i did believe in myself.

I had never known making a very small mistake could have the affect the size of a elephant.
I had never known i had made that mistake.

I had never known someone could ignore someone like they didn't exist.
I had never known you could ignore me like that.

I had never known it was hard for someone to trust you.
I had never known you didn't trust me.

I had never known it was hard to trust someone.
I had never known i didn't trust you all along.

I had never known you wouldn't back me up.
I had never known you never did.

Mothers can be so demanding!

Gr, Mothers can be so demanding!
Here are 8 things about myself.
(Happy mommy?)

1. I have a Volume Control Problem.
I tend to get very loud to very quiet in just seconds, or the worst, i am very quiet (like a good girl) and get very loud, which tends to get on peoples nerves.

2. I always push myself to the limits.
I try to push myself to the limits. I guess what you can call it is, I'm a lazily push myself to the limits. I get stuff done, but i always do it more creatively.

3. I like to be the center of things.
No, I'm not a brat. But i do like being the topic of a Conversation (if its a good convo). I like being the BIG thing at a party or at school. If i don't think enough people know who i am, i get myself out there even more.

4. I hate shopping.
Shopping does not take any interest in me. I guess it does to no one if you have no money, and as for myself, i never have money. So, i basically never like shopping, But i always seem to be dragged out to shop with my sister who likes to shop for hours in ONE store. Now, that will have to change!

5.I care A LOT about what people think about me.
I just cant NOT care. Its bothers me way more than it should. I just cant help it. I know deep down in everyone, everyone cares. They either, wont admit it, or they do admit it.

6. I hate when people are mad at me.
Yes, i may do something stupid, but come on! I say sorry, i do whatever i can do, and yet you still are mad at me. What bothers me the most is when they hate you, but have no reason at all, or they wont tell you why they hate you, so you cant fix it. Now that's just retarded!

7. I couldn't be myself without my Family.
The past few months were REALLY tough on me, and i know, that if i didn't have my family being disappointed in me, and me knowing i was just hurting the family made me change back into myself. I could feel myself slipping away and turning into someone i didn't want to turn into. Thanks Family <3

8. I love Music.
I couldn't sleep without it. Every night when i go to bed, i turn on my radio and turn it up very loud. I'm not sure why but if its quiet then i cant sleep. so, i turn it up loud enough so the room next to mine can hear it and just fall asleep. I listen to it everyday! It informs me in what kind of mood I'm in. I just love it!

Good Enough

Do you ever feel like your not good enough, like your either to ugly or to pretty or, your to young or to old. do you ever wish you could be a different person so you could get what you want? Do you ever wish you could be taller or shorter, skinnier or fatter, smarter or less smart? do you ever wish you could have what someone else has. do you ever wish you lived somewhere else, you went to a different school, you had different friends? do you ever wish that you could just get everything you want with out doing anything? Have you ever wish that you could be someone else because in your point of view they are perfect. do you ever wish someone would just accept you for yourself?

I have. I do. I will forever.