Why cant I keep a relationship!?
I cant stay happy.
I cant I appreciate what I have.
I cant trust people.
I cant understand people.
I cant communicate with people.
I need someone perfect for me.
I want someone that I will be with for a long time.
I don't want a relationship that will only last a month or so.
I don't understand how much I want a person until I don't have them. Then I see how much I needed them, how much they were a part of my life, how much the meant to me.
I wish I had never given the first one up :/
Sunday, December 30, 2007
Sunday, December 23, 2007
New Age Love <3
Texting
Raven-Hey, I have a question. Why are we not dating?
Tommy-Idk. Should we?
Raven-Id like to. What do you think?
Tommy-Sure!
Raven-Okay :)
Raven-Hey, I have a question. Why are we not dating?
Tommy-Idk. Should we?
Raven-Id like to. What do you think?
Tommy-Sure!
Raven-Okay :)
Thursday, December 20, 2007
Oh Oh How Happy
I have been down for the past month or so. But, I am changing my ways.
I am going to be a Happy person.
I am going to be a Cheerful person.
I am going to be a Pleasent person.
I am going to be a PERSON!
Im Happy for the first time in a few months!!
I am going to be a Happy person.
I am going to be a Cheerful person.
I am going to be a Pleasent person.
I am going to be a PERSON!
Im Happy for the first time in a few months!!
The end
The End to all my bad decisions.
Good bye.
The End to all my poor choices.
Good bye.
The End to my slacking in school.
Good bye.
The End to my old ways.
Good bye.
The End to all the Drama in my life.
Good bye.
The Beginning of a new Raven Isabella Finch.
Hello.
Good bye.
The End to all my poor choices.
Good bye.
The End to my slacking in school.
Good bye.
The End to my old ways.
Good bye.
The End to all the Drama in my life.
Good bye.
The Beginning of a new Raven Isabella Finch.
Hello.
Saturday, October 20, 2007
Halloween
Halloween. Do you feel like its a childish holiday? it might be, but even adults/teenagrs have to participate in Halloween. Giving candy is one way, or making your house all scary, or even dressing up and getting candy.
Im 13 years old and in ways i feel like im already to old. but also, i feel like it might just be because i dont know what i want to be. I personally think that it would be fun to give out candy. Maybe ill stay home and give out candy. watch a movie or two. Hang out with Nathan and other friends.
What ya think?
I want to hear other peoples opinions!
Im 13 years old and in ways i feel like im already to old. but also, i feel like it might just be because i dont know what i want to be. I personally think that it would be fun to give out candy. Maybe ill stay home and give out candy. watch a movie or two. Hang out with Nathan and other friends.
What ya think?
I want to hear other peoples opinions!
Monday, October 8, 2007
Nathan
Nathan, The most wonderful guy in the world! We have been dating for almost 3 weeks now and I can tell we can be together for a long time. He is so kind and he truly cares about me.
The way we met, its actually truly funny. Mikaila and I went to a football game with Chelsea and her friends. Mikaila and I felt like...Losers. Out of no were, flying nacho chips are landing in my hair. I turn my head about to see who was throwing them (think it was Chelsea) and to yell at them. But then, i saw the most adorable face. It was Nathan's. We talked for most of the time and then text the whole weekend. About a week later he asked me out.
The next time i saw him after that, we went and saw Across the Universe with Summer and Mikaila. It was an amazing movie. At the very last part of the movie, I felt very, ill. I got up and ran to the bathroom and barfed!
Its amazing he still likes me :P
Sunday, September 30, 2007
Never known
I had never known it was hard for someone to forgive you.
I had never known you hadn't forgiven me.
I had never known it was hard for someone to believe you.
I had never known you didn't believe in me.
I had never known it was hard for you to believe in yourself.
I had never known i did believe in myself.
I had never known making a very small mistake could have the affect the size of a elephant.
I had never known i had made that mistake.
I had never known someone could ignore someone like they didn't exist.
I had never known you could ignore me like that.
I had never known it was hard for someone to trust you.
I had never known you didn't trust me.
I had never known it was hard to trust someone.
I had never known i didn't trust you all along.
I had never known you wouldn't back me up.
I had never known you never did.
I had never known you hadn't forgiven me.
I had never known it was hard for someone to believe you.
I had never known you didn't believe in me.
I had never known it was hard for you to believe in yourself.
I had never known i did believe in myself.
I had never known making a very small mistake could have the affect the size of a elephant.
I had never known i had made that mistake.
I had never known someone could ignore someone like they didn't exist.
I had never known you could ignore me like that.
I had never known it was hard for someone to trust you.
I had never known you didn't trust me.
I had never known it was hard to trust someone.
I had never known i didn't trust you all along.
I had never known you wouldn't back me up.
I had never known you never did.
Monday, September 10, 2007
Mothers can be so demanding!
Gr, Mothers can be so demanding!
Here are 8 things about myself.
(Happy mommy?)
1. I have a Volume Control Problem.
I tend to get very loud to very quiet in just seconds, or the worst, i am very quiet (like a good girl) and get very loud, which tends to get on peoples nerves.
2. I always push myself to the limits.
I try to push myself to the limits. I guess what you can call it is, I'm a lazily push myself to the limits. I get stuff done, but i always do it more creatively.
3. I like to be the center of things.
No, I'm not a brat. But i do like being the topic of a Conversation (if its a good convo). I like being the BIG thing at a party or at school. If i don't think enough people know who i am, i get myself out there even more.
4. I hate shopping.
Shopping does not take any interest in me. I guess it does to no one if you have no money, and as for myself, i never have money. So, i basically never like shopping, But i always seem to be dragged out to shop with my sister who likes to shop for hours in ONE store. Now, that will have to change!
5.I care A LOT about what people think about me.
I just cant NOT care. Its bothers me way more than it should. I just cant help it. I know deep down in everyone, everyone cares. They either, wont admit it, or they do admit it.
6. I hate when people are mad at me.
Yes, i may do something stupid, but come on! I say sorry, i do whatever i can do, and yet you still are mad at me. What bothers me the most is when they hate you, but have no reason at all, or they wont tell you why they hate you, so you cant fix it. Now that's just retarded!
7. I couldn't be myself without my Family.
The past few months were REALLY tough on me, and i know, that if i didn't have my family being disappointed in me, and me knowing i was just hurting the family made me change back into myself. I could feel myself slipping away and turning into someone i didn't want to turn into. Thanks Family <3
8. I love Music.
I couldn't sleep without it. Every night when i go to bed, i turn on my radio and turn it up very loud. I'm not sure why but if its quiet then i cant sleep. so, i turn it up loud enough so the room next to mine can hear it and just fall asleep. I listen to it everyday! It informs me in what kind of mood I'm in. I just love it!
Here are 8 things about myself.
(Happy mommy?)
1. I have a Volume Control Problem.
I tend to get very loud to very quiet in just seconds, or the worst, i am very quiet (like a good girl) and get very loud, which tends to get on peoples nerves.
2. I always push myself to the limits.
I try to push myself to the limits. I guess what you can call it is, I'm a lazily push myself to the limits. I get stuff done, but i always do it more creatively.
3. I like to be the center of things.
No, I'm not a brat. But i do like being the topic of a Conversation (if its a good convo). I like being the BIG thing at a party or at school. If i don't think enough people know who i am, i get myself out there even more.
4. I hate shopping.
Shopping does not take any interest in me. I guess it does to no one if you have no money, and as for myself, i never have money. So, i basically never like shopping, But i always seem to be dragged out to shop with my sister who likes to shop for hours in ONE store. Now, that will have to change!
5.I care A LOT about what people think about me.
I just cant NOT care. Its bothers me way more than it should. I just cant help it. I know deep down in everyone, everyone cares. They either, wont admit it, or they do admit it.
6. I hate when people are mad at me.
Yes, i may do something stupid, but come on! I say sorry, i do whatever i can do, and yet you still are mad at me. What bothers me the most is when they hate you, but have no reason at all, or they wont tell you why they hate you, so you cant fix it. Now that's just retarded!
7. I couldn't be myself without my Family.
The past few months were REALLY tough on me, and i know, that if i didn't have my family being disappointed in me, and me knowing i was just hurting the family made me change back into myself. I could feel myself slipping away and turning into someone i didn't want to turn into. Thanks Family <3
8. I love Music.
I couldn't sleep without it. Every night when i go to bed, i turn on my radio and turn it up very loud. I'm not sure why but if its quiet then i cant sleep. so, i turn it up loud enough so the room next to mine can hear it and just fall asleep. I listen to it everyday! It informs me in what kind of mood I'm in. I just love it!
Thursday, September 6, 2007
Good Enough
Do you ever feel like your not good enough, like your either to ugly or to pretty or, your to young or to old. do you ever wish you could be a different person so you could get what you want? Do you ever wish you could be taller or shorter, skinnier or fatter, smarter or less smart? do you ever wish you could have what someone else has. do you ever wish you lived somewhere else, you went to a different school, you had different friends? do you ever wish that you could just get everything you want with out doing anything? Have you ever wish that you could be someone else because in your point of view they are perfect. do you ever wish someone would just accept you for yourself?
I have. I do. I will forever.
I have. I do. I will forever.
Tuesday, August 28, 2007
Mistakes
Everyone makes Mistakes. You would think that if you made a small mistake it would not matter. As it might not have mattered to you that you made a mistake, it may bother or concern others. Everyone makes them but we should all try to not as many.
As i myself, had made a few mistakes in the past 3 months. I have gotten my punishment, Did my punishments, and now i have completely learned my lesson. I now understand when parents say its just as hard for me to ground you as for you to get grounded. I believe after I was off my grounding I had learned new ways to look at life, new feelings for others, i feel that i have become more mature, and less "boy crazy".
The reason I am writing this blog is to say Thank You Mom and Dad! I may not have been happy when you grounded me, but you did and im thankful. Im a completely new person and I would like to say that you two WONDERFUL parents were what did that to me.
Thanks and I love you two Dearly
Raven
As i myself, had made a few mistakes in the past 3 months. I have gotten my punishment, Did my punishments, and now i have completely learned my lesson. I now understand when parents say its just as hard for me to ground you as for you to get grounded. I believe after I was off my grounding I had learned new ways to look at life, new feelings for others, i feel that i have become more mature, and less "boy crazy".
The reason I am writing this blog is to say Thank You Mom and Dad! I may not have been happy when you grounded me, but you did and im thankful. Im a completely new person and I would like to say that you two WONDERFUL parents were what did that to me.
Thanks and I love you two Dearly
Raven
Monday, August 27, 2007
Poems i have wrote
I'm definitely not the best Poet in the world but i try.
I have written more than this. but this is all i feel i should show the word.
(on 1/22)Dancing in the moon light, with the stars shining so bright, as it starts to rain, i forget my pain, i look into space, the stars make your face.
(on 1/21)I wrote u a poem or two, I had nothing to do, I thought u would be thankful, but all u were was hateful, maybe I will lose some fat, will u be happy with that, or maybe I will cut my hair, but u prolly wont care, maybe I will change my attitude, its like changing the latitude, u made me happy when u flirt, now u make me hurt, I want to feel happy but I only feel crappy.
(on 1/19)as i sit here and cry, as i try to tell u i tried to try, to be your only one, i thought it would be fun, but all it does it hurt, all i did was flirt, all u do is ignore me, sometimes i just want to flee, i don't know y i even like u, your just as worthless as the bottom of my shoe, all u did was like that girl, whenever u talked about her i wanted to hurl, we were just friends and i wanted more, but all i ever got was as useless as the floor, i guess we will be never more. this is my love poem and as for the words...yea i wrote them.
I have written more than this. but this is all i feel i should show the word.
(on 1/22)Dancing in the moon light, with the stars shining so bright, as it starts to rain, i forget my pain, i look into space, the stars make your face.
(on 1/21)I wrote u a poem or two, I had nothing to do, I thought u would be thankful, but all u were was hateful, maybe I will lose some fat, will u be happy with that, or maybe I will cut my hair, but u prolly wont care, maybe I will change my attitude, its like changing the latitude, u made me happy when u flirt, now u make me hurt, I want to feel happy but I only feel crappy.
(on 1/19)as i sit here and cry, as i try to tell u i tried to try, to be your only one, i thought it would be fun, but all it does it hurt, all i did was flirt, all u do is ignore me, sometimes i just want to flee, i don't know y i even like u, your just as worthless as the bottom of my shoe, all u did was like that girl, whenever u talked about her i wanted to hurl, we were just friends and i wanted more, but all i ever got was as useless as the floor, i guess we will be never more. this is my love poem and as for the words...yea i wrote them.
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