Sunday, April 19, 2009
Looking Deeper
You look at me
See what you want to see
But what’s beneath that?
Beneath the muscle and fat
Within my bones
Behind my tones
Of voices
Are the choices
The decisions
I have to make
The risks
I have to take
To be with you
And when you’re through
Im left
With the pains
All over
Like stains
On bleached jeans
Worn down
Ripped
Not at all close
To the price
When you first bought them
Just like my heart
Worn down
From all its use
It’s beginning to rip
Not at all close
To the pumping
Heart it once was
You look at me
See what you want to see
But what’s beneath that?
See what you want to see
But what’s beneath that?
Beneath the muscle and fat
Within my bones
Behind my tones
Of voices
Are the choices
The decisions
I have to make
The risks
I have to take
To be with you
And when you’re through
Im left
With the pains
All over
Like stains
On bleached jeans
Worn down
Ripped
Not at all close
To the price
When you first bought them
Just like my heart
Worn down
From all its use
It’s beginning to rip
Not at all close
To the pumping
Heart it once was
You look at me
See what you want to see
But what’s beneath that?
Wednesday, February 25, 2009
i have decided
recently decided to carry around a notebook
writing down funny things i have heard, funny sightings, or just random or interesting things. I think it will be fun and i will start doing a weekly or daily post on here with everything i have gathered.
it should be interesting, im hoping i can keep up with it
writing down funny things i have heard, funny sightings, or just random or interesting things. I think it will be fun and i will start doing a weekly or daily post on here with everything i have gathered.
it should be interesting, im hoping i can keep up with it
Tuesday, February 10, 2009
upmost favorite song EVER
We need to talk my dearest friend
About this new girl you're dating
There's something about her that I just don't like
But you don't know her like I do
And her intent seems to be true
Cause everything she does makes me feel this is right
You've only known her for awhile
Don't be too charmed by her smile
I heard she has been around a time or two
Is there something you're not telling me?
Do you and her have history?
Cause it sounds like you're speaking from experience
Just promise you won't get upset
Well I can't promise that
It happened long before you met her
Just come right out and say it
It's not that easy
Oh no, it's not that easy
Just say it
Just say it
She had my heart until she decided to break it
She'll do the same to you, if I'm not mistaken
I'll take my chances cause romance is something I'm new at
Don't say I didn't warn you
I wouldn't say that
How could you keep this from me?
It's not really how it seems
My best friend was with my girlfriend and
I'm the last to know
Okay, before this gets too heated
I think we should both be seated
And I'll let you know how it all went down
It was the summer of junior year
You were out of town and I was here
We got introduced and started dating
And I regret it
I can't sit here and take this
All I'm hearing is bullshit
I think it's best for the both of us if we end this right now
You're right it's really not my place
To say who you should date
I don't need to hear any more
I'm heading out the door
Well best of luck I hope she doesn't do the same to you
She had my heart before she decided to break it
She'll do the same to you, if I'm not mistaken
I'll take my chances cause romance is something I'm new at
Don't say I didn't warn you
I wouldn't say that
No, I wouldn't say that
Two weeks later
Couldn't date her
Called her on the phone
Heard his voice in the background asking if I thought she was alone
It seems like something has been going on
For awhile and I'm the last to know
Don't worry, I won't rub it in your face
Cause now's not the time
And here's not the place
I'm not the kind of guy to say I told you so
But you told me so
Yeah, I know
She had my heart until she decided to break it
She did the same to you, I know you weren't mistaken
You took your chances cause romance was something you were new at
Well at least you warned me
Yeah, you could say that
She had my heart until she decided to break it
She did the same to you, I know you weren't mistaken
You took your chances cause romance was something you were new at
Well at least you warned me
Well you could say that
No, I wouldn't say that
About this new girl you're dating
There's something about her that I just don't like
But you don't know her like I do
And her intent seems to be true
Cause everything she does makes me feel this is right
You've only known her for awhile
Don't be too charmed by her smile
I heard she has been around a time or two
Is there something you're not telling me?
Do you and her have history?
Cause it sounds like you're speaking from experience
Just promise you won't get upset
Well I can't promise that
It happened long before you met her
Just come right out and say it
It's not that easy
Oh no, it's not that easy
Just say it
Just say it
She had my heart until she decided to break it
She'll do the same to you, if I'm not mistaken
I'll take my chances cause romance is something I'm new at
Don't say I didn't warn you
I wouldn't say that
How could you keep this from me?
It's not really how it seems
My best friend was with my girlfriend and
I'm the last to know
Okay, before this gets too heated
I think we should both be seated
And I'll let you know how it all went down
It was the summer of junior year
You were out of town and I was here
We got introduced and started dating
And I regret it
I can't sit here and take this
All I'm hearing is bullshit
I think it's best for the both of us if we end this right now
You're right it's really not my place
To say who you should date
I don't need to hear any more
I'm heading out the door
Well best of luck I hope she doesn't do the same to you
She had my heart before she decided to break it
She'll do the same to you, if I'm not mistaken
I'll take my chances cause romance is something I'm new at
Don't say I didn't warn you
I wouldn't say that
No, I wouldn't say that
Two weeks later
Couldn't date her
Called her on the phone
Heard his voice in the background asking if I thought she was alone
It seems like something has been going on
For awhile and I'm the last to know
Don't worry, I won't rub it in your face
Cause now's not the time
And here's not the place
I'm not the kind of guy to say I told you so
But you told me so
Yeah, I know
She had my heart until she decided to break it
She did the same to you, I know you weren't mistaken
You took your chances cause romance was something you were new at
Well at least you warned me
Yeah, you could say that
She had my heart until she decided to break it
She did the same to you, I know you weren't mistaken
You took your chances cause romance was something you were new at
Well at least you warned me
Well you could say that
No, I wouldn't say that
Monday, February 9, 2009
wow thats deep raven
Dear boy,
you mean the world to me, i cant even explain it. I dont know you very well. I have never really had a deep conversation with you. We argue, NONSTOP! but im changing. im trying. im doing the best i can. i really want you to see. and you always give me these bullshit answers and i just cant take it anymore. I know you like her, i know your like fucking crazy over her. but WHY, why cant that just be me. I dont sleep at night thinking about that over and over in my head. wondering what i do differently then her to make you not like me and to make you adore her. you flirt, NONSTOP with me, and i cant handle it ATALL. you think im gonna cheat, i could never to you. you think im gonna bitch, what reason to bitch once i had you? none. im not gonna sit here, once again and "try to tell you what to do" and im not gonna sit here and wait until you have made a mistake either. Im leaving. Im done. I care for you so fucking much. that no matter where you are, who your with or what your doing, im gonna be thinking about you. im not gonna be physically there to talk to or to be friends with. but remember me
you mean the world to me, i cant even explain it. I dont know you very well. I have never really had a deep conversation with you. We argue, NONSTOP! but im changing. im trying. im doing the best i can. i really want you to see. and you always give me these bullshit answers and i just cant take it anymore. I know you like her, i know your like fucking crazy over her. but WHY, why cant that just be me. I dont sleep at night thinking about that over and over in my head. wondering what i do differently then her to make you not like me and to make you adore her. you flirt, NONSTOP with me, and i cant handle it ATALL. you think im gonna cheat, i could never to you. you think im gonna bitch, what reason to bitch once i had you? none. im not gonna sit here, once again and "try to tell you what to do" and im not gonna sit here and wait until you have made a mistake either. Im leaving. Im done. I care for you so fucking much. that no matter where you are, who your with or what your doing, im gonna be thinking about you. im not gonna be physically there to talk to or to be friends with. but remember me
Wednesday, December 10, 2008
UPDATE
-got myself a boy, name is Cameron, he turned 16 two days after we started dating, which was 12/04/08 <3 He is a fantastic boyfriend. He treats me right and i know he truly cares about me. Right before we started dating, we found out that we used to hang out when we were younger, and that just brought us closer together. I am so happy with him, and i AM going to make this work.
- got hit in the face with a rock, had to go to the hospital for the very first time, and got stitches. I was at Cameron's birthday party, and someone threw a rock at my face. I think i got... 6 stitches. I got to Cameron's party with Jessica around 8:30. I got hit in the face with the rock around 9:00. I got picked up by my mother around 9:45. and got to the hospital around 10:30. I had to sit around and i finally left, with stitches in my chin, and 2:30 am. I had never been in the Emergency Room and it was scary there. There was an old man puking up black stuff, and there was a guy who's whole shirt was covered in blood and there was also this one girl who came running in screaming cause she got bit by a dog.
- The 1st semester of school is about to end.
- North Carolina was not that much fun, but it was alright, it was SUPER DUPER cold.
- I want a Ipod Touch and a Laptop for Christmas.
- Cameron is in the Hospital because he ran through a glass door, broke his leg, cut the nerve that makes his foot work, and got a gash in his head. He has been in there since monday, and is leaving Friday, maybe. I have gone to see him every day after school.
- My BESTESTESTESTEST friend in the whole wide world is JESSICA <3
- Chelsea got her car but does not drive me around very much.
THE END
for now
Wednesday, November 26, 2008
off to north carolina
i cant wait <3 its going to be so much fun.
im just going to clear my mind :]
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im just going to clear my mind :]
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